Voice Message

"You have one new voice message.. Too listen to your voice message, please press 1."

Heart skips-- thinks-- wondering shud i?--presses 1-- Saves it.



So, as you guys may know by now.

Relationships are RARE for me.

But ya gurl is in love. How can I put this=/

I have known him for quite sometime now however false interactions and miscommunicated statements kept our love for eachother from growing. Life in general for me has been difficult to live and to have someone by my side has been even more a challenge because of my demanding ways. Presocietal expectations have allowed me not to believe in this idea called love and yet i find my self at its stoop once again....pouring out my heart. It's easy to say "I love you" but its harder to show it...Yes of course I done been in and out of jokes a.k.a relationships but I hope this one is sincere. I'm not known to keep someone close so this does feel weird and if writing this blog is going to make me feel better than so be it.

Rambling thoughts<3

"Don't hurt me because at the end, You will be hurting yourself"~him~

_chyll spoke

_until next time

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_Jokes (reposted)

_ I had wrote this a while back for facebook but decided to bring it to my fellow bloggers!!!!!!!

Reality coincides with perceptions. See, although we are classified under groups in society, the interrelations within people are not as pure as they once used to be. Technological advances has taken away from the purity of relationships with oneself as well as with others. With these new advances we encounter change. Changes within our community and personal relationships. So we then begin to question the concept of change and is it real? Who defines change and what it should be?

To touch on relationships...

How do you think these differences have affected the relationships you have with others?


Relationships are the common joke. They are now being started off of pure vulnerability and dependancy. Your dependant on that other person for several different reasons.In some cases we have people who are not as strong as they think they are so they depend on others to complete them. In other cases we have those people who like to have someone that they can control and is submissive to there needs. So we ask, What is a pure relationship and if so when does it become pure?

Short term relationships turning into marriages!
Long term relationships turning into violence!

"Babe I can't express my feelings to you so I want you to lissen to this song and that is how I feel now can we go have fun....It's all on you right?"Here we clearly view dependancy on technology to express emotion as well as having that person feel as though they are treating you well by spoiling them.

Being in love is true....Words are worthless when actions are at maximum loudness. So to show ones love show it then say it. And when in love people change for the better of the relationship. They will do things that they thought they would never do! They begin to realize that this person is for them excluding everything that comes with them(as far as money) and including everything that was already there.

People break-up usually because of their own insecurities allowing them not to trust you.
People break-up because it was not meant to be.
People break-up because of deciet (if spelled wrong "no gill")

In this life nothing is appreciated...so begin to appreaciate those close to you wether it be family or a spouse. Realize the little things they do and compliment them for it.

rambling thoughts of the day!!!

P.s- The definition of dating needs to cleared out....People date to get to know other people wether it be dating several people at once etc.

IT IS NETWORKING PEOPLE!!!
Love you guyz!!!

_Live your Life

_ Isn't amazing when you feel loved? When you make up with old friends? When life seems to be dealing the right cards for you???? Pretty soon we will be in a new year and no i'm not going to tell you my new years resolution because I don't have one!!!! For what? I'mma be doing the same shyt I was doing this year, next year: volleyball.parties.work.school!!!!! Things are definitely going to change (Obama 08)but I do not know what those are yet so I can't call it before the year has begun. The only thing I can aspire for is good health and wealth for the many years too come!!!!! Yet this is the eighth year without seeing my pops....=/ Be grateful for what you have guys cause sooner or later they may not be here any more!!!!!!! I love you DaDDy hope to see you soon (spring break action)

_Live your life!!!!

_Hair Down!!!!!!!!

_wtf is goin on here!!!!


This is ridiculous...they prolly have kids to go too!!!!lol.smh.

You be the judge of that one!!!

_A TREE ISN'T THE ONLY THING GROWING IN BROOKLYN

_MTV is finally going to give the people of America what they want!!!!!! The Real World is coming down to Brooklyn to air its 21st season (surprisingly). Are not you excited???? Having such a diversified lifestyle and inevitable reality, Brooklyn will surely make shyt hit the fan on this season of The Real World. The cast is feeding the the viewers their personalities ranging from a virgin Mormon to a tanning fiend (figures). Contributing to the chaos Brooklyn already has to offer once you cross over that bridge, the cast will show the beauty of our borough to millions of people across the nation!!!!!!

_Wondering where they are going to reside?????......... RED HOOK

_ That kind of took me for surprise just because even Brooklyn people forget about red hook ....I was leaning towards more of the NORTH SIDE/WILLIAMSBURG area or to spark the reality of how rude BROOKLYN people can be the heart of it all EAST NEW YORK......Sadly its in red hook in newly renovated lofts that have not had too much residency but was filmed in the movie Hitch....So i guess that's fine!!!

_Filming has said to have already begun in Sept of 08'......

_Shyt is about to get real crazy!!! Wonder what City Councilman Charles Barron has pre-planned for incidents that are surely going to occur?????

_stay tuned

_chyll<3

_the smile

_so the other half of me had a birthday on the 13th.



In essence

with random styling and cute dresses

your smile is what brightens

our friendship

from dislikes to shoulder cries

you have shown me the beauty in life

despite those who have tried

our friendship has never seen a part

as clumsy and dittsy as you are

you prevent me from steppin on the cracks

of this hood that fed us its heart

and in essence we grew closer

turning pitty into prime

you've learned how to keep your head up

and at times stay alive

when the creases in your face

say "tash....but im confused"

im right by your side saying

"chyll i got you"









_happy birthday to my bestfriend, my sister JAMMI

_Is Graffiti the New Social Life?

_Since when everyone is a graffiti artist?

Before I went to class today as I always do I look at current news that is going on back at home in BROOKLYN and unexpectedly there was an article about the Brooklyn Museum and Graffiti Art. With recent negative talk about Graffiti and it becoming a social aspect in this generation while back in the 70's and 80's it was hard to express your art through aerosol cans because it was not accepted as much and everything was illegal....the question is posed Well has Graffiti become a social aspect in this generation? Has this taken away from the art of graffiti because there are artist who are coming out of no where saying they love graffiti and been doing it for years?

As an outsider I have always naively wondered how graffiti got into the underground cement walls of the train? How someones art could have been in the weirdest places yet so eloquently expressed. These unanswered questions were answered by a well known artist in East New York, Brooklyn who expresses his love for graffiti in his own neighborhood rather then branching out to places such as lower manhattan and broadway which are famous for first time graf artist to show what they got. While reading the article I sent him the link and he blatantly expressed that "he respected old heads like tracy and lady pink and all of them." However he proceeded to say" i dont respect that shit at all cuz they dont respect us." The article talks about Graffiti and the aspects it has in the social aspect of this generation, detailing the artist whose art is in the exhibition.

The question I ask myself is Does this graffiti art represent the art of those underground artist who have been doing this for years?

art.hw.thanks.bday.life.love.newz

_wow. I have not been here in a while which is a lil scary....that means i have been actually busting ass in the class room for once lol.....

_When I last made a quick appearance... I had a lot to talk about with thanksgiving break as well as newly found members in my life. Questions aroused as though I which forced me to step out of my shell and figure out what was going on.

........Thanksgiving Break could not have been better than what it was. I spent it with the people that have meant the most to me in the past year(family&friends) and GFT(newly found fam)!!!!!!!!

....My bday weekend I went to sneakyyy petes, my brother and his gurl came to my school to party etc. Had an od bday cake!!!!!! (WEEKEND WENT WELL)

.......In between the two I had been working hard handing in everything that I left for last minute like a dick head!!!! Im almost done tho!!!

......Current News:

1) WE ARE STILL IN A RECESSION.......why are people taking everyday things that are here today and may not be here tomorrow for granted!!!!!!!!!

2) Discrimination is still an issue in 2008 even though we have an African American President....do you believe that change can still occur with so much history underlying the actions that persist in today's generation?

_rambling thoughts!!!!

_hw time

_write to you all in a tomorrow before finals(lol)

_chyll till next time<3>