_Dec.4th

"19, but 35 year old soul-- heart of Gold, some say im Bold, but i just like to think im rather Smart, set me apart, becuz this diamond you will never get to flaunt. i am me, but who is SHE? "

Isn't that the truth.damn.life.friends?fake. relate?

Jammi got that one!!<3

dec.4th a star was born.

dec.4th I was born.

Imma prosper while watching all you others mourn

_ChyLL spoke

_Stay tuned some shyt will always go down

_DAMN FOOL

_ So im sitting here with rambling thoughts.the usual.trying to process everything as time passes by and I have realized the beauty in thought and what it can save you from.

_dnt know how to feel right now

_smh.

_out to jam crib.

_wishin i was in new york

_Lol...BIRTHDAY SEX->Jeremiah....song been in my head for a while now

_chyll spoke

_pssssh WHOMP

_Style & Mountains

_ Going to school in the berkshires is hard considering the fact that you are in between two mountains that hover over the school. Shit. it might as well create a shadow.lol. Anywho, its really hard wanting to get dressed in a situation like this just because you really don't feel the need to get dressed some days, well most of the days sooooo... you run out the crib with sweats, a shirt and sometimess (in the winter) you won't even put a coat on just a sweater. And here comes in Jamal. A very spontaneous and open minded individual who can be weird at times but for the most part is the friendliest person on campus.He has the most innocent truth to his conversation it's like you can't even be mad at him most of the time for saying stupid shit that makes you think twice. Jamal comes into the cafe looking straight brooklyn. Seeing him earlier yesterday around noon I really didn't peep his swag as clear as I did when I came from working out later on that night during dinner. Had to give em props.

Check him out

He looked so nice. I had to post about em.lets go mal do your shyt!!!!!!!!

_chyll spoke

_stay tuned something will always go down<3

_mid...afternoon randomness...

_dis shyt shyt makes you wanna have somebody.........


_Drake wats good son!!!!!!!

Drake ft Lloyd ~>A night off
Drake~>Sooner or later

lmfao @ my homie squig video tho......he put me on...

aiight back to my paper!!!!!!

squig!!!! get outta here duke

_he makes me blush<3
_weekend going well
_trip maybe?
_this is carazie
_watz wrong wit em??????

_get outta here duke all up in my aorta.

_chyll spoke
_im out
_we'll see what happens he aint all dat tho

_The Naked Truth by Marvelyn Brown

_Buying a book I need for a course in my Social Work Skills class, I came across this book that caught my eye because of the beautiful black woman on the cover while reading the cover and looking down I realized that she was HIV positive.Yup. HIV POSITIVE.

I have been walking around with this book since last night taking it every where I went because it is a true story. It happened to Marvelyn at the young age of nineteen because she had unprotected sex. I am in total shocked I am hoping to be done with the book by 2am so that I can be able to do jam hair.

ITS ALMOST VDAY.....and I feel I couldnt of picked a better book at such a better time

Then this one.

This book is recent to I mean she graduated highschool at the age of nineteen.

We definitely can relate.

Next book to begin reading that will have me analytically thinking about our AMERICA is....."WHY HIP HOP CAN'T SAVE BLACK AMERICA"

As for now you all should read "THE NAKED TRUTH"

_where u at?

_God where you at when I need an answer. I mean ultimately when I can't find answers to the grief and strife that everyday life brings I call on you to answer my prayers at night. But this time I question you, although I shouldn't why would you deal me this deck of cards? And just when I thought things were safe when things were going good.....I just don't know what to do so I opened up a post and began to write. As humans we look at others and see what they have been through and pray that we don't go through the same shyt but when it happens to you..its surreal. You feel like saying fuk it...why care? Im the way I am because of everything I done been through and I understand that everyone says this but to each its own. Everybody got a story and mine is just beginning to evolve. I haven't been through half the shyt others have so imma take this one to the heart and be stronger than most for her. In life we question everything that occurs and wonder if there really is a you....A GOD....all i can say is if when i die your not there....i won't be upset imma just be glad that the thought of you......of somebody looking over me kept me sane.

_im in pain but fuk it....gotta be strong for her

_I LOVE YOU MOMMY

_stay tuned some shyt will always go down

_chyll spoke tears tonight

_AM BLUES

_ Just woke up ready to start my day off with a bang....Head is spinning. I slept on Akeemy the only man that keeps me warm at night my builld a bear. Getting my passport done today when I come back I will show you guys the finishing product. Out to take a shower!!!!!!

_chyllspoke
_stay tuned some shyt will always go down

_cant wait for the besty'z boo to come!!!!
_he is a cornball anyway but fuk it

_BIO Crisis!!!

_Someone come save me!!!!!!!!!! I have a BIO exam on wednesday and am trying to start studying for it now!!!!!!!! UGHZ I hate this part of it all. When I have to take courses that do not interest a thing on my body. Ironically enough, I was a pre-med major in high school...I only did that because it was either bio or teaching and I was like fuck it I will just do BIO. Ms.Pents im sorry<3...(lol)..

_Besides doing that I just thought about this weekend as a whole and realized that this weekend by far is going in my book as the most prideful college weekend(lol)...I tell you from blackouts to a cuddle spouse this by far has to be a weekend to tell to our fellow peers.

_SideBar: I feel a way right now...like this is the first time in a long time where I feel as though I dnt need any one. Idk. I have no valentine and don't feel awkward in no way because you know what ...Shyt happenez and I refuse to dwell on shyt. I'm just letting things FLOW!!!!

_Im a snail(lol insider) when it comes to relationships.<3

_Enjoying life as it comes.....

_Chyll spoke
_stay tuned some shyt will always go down

_ China

_ I haven't blogged in a couple of days because I have been bombarded with an extreme work load. And we all know when the weekend comes around Chyll doesn't know how to act (lol) so apologies for that. Now on too the good stuff......How are we internally going to accept certain things if conciously those things that are trying to be accepted will never happen? In other words I recieved this letter in the mail which made me realize how important the feelings and emotions are of other people(to be cont'd). Just made me wonder. So yeah I am going to respond to it

_Now on to the Good NEWZ IM GOING TO CHINA!!!!!!

Im going to China for Spring Break!!!!!!!!!

yay me<3

_chyll spoke gettin readi for tonight

_MUT

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_Throbbing

_I haven't posted in a while came to the conclusion that around the weekend time posting is at its minimum. Any who here I am now, awake from 3 shots and a drink of that good good stuff and the steelers did win baby. I really had to choose a side tonight, I won't even lie to you guys. I watch sports and love em but I didn't follow football this year. Hearing about the steelers a lot steered me toward them and plus their closer to my home town NEW YORK.

_This weekend I was forced to LIVE the COLLEGE LIFE. Since being in college I have been chylln, meaning going to school, to eat and back to the house. As jammi would say we been playing it safe which isn't a bad thing however, we are single girls that give boys no type of play, es[ecially if we are in a club. That's how its always been. We would talk about the night after a party and say remember this dude, oh no that dude was, nah this dude was, the dude by the stage (lol) but we never ever gave them any type of play. I mean if you aren't friends with us you would think that through party pics we bag (meaning getting contact info) everything in site but realtiy is we don't.

_This weekend there was alot of gossip bullshit,throbbing and bruises going on. I had a really goodnight with my volleyball girls and a goodnight with my hommies.

_Now going back to bed class at 10am blog to you guys around 3pm.

_stay tuned some shyt will always go down<3

_chyll spoke

P.S~~> Never knew how hard it would be trying to talk to someone knew. hope it goes well

hint:(listening to travi freestyles)